“On the night you were born,
the moon shone with such wonder
that the stars peeked in
to see you
and the night wind whispered,
‘Life will never be the same.’
Because there had never been
anyone like you…
ever in the world.”
5 years ago, I couldn’t have told you what my baby looked like. Well, except for smooshy. And adorable.
I couldn’t have guessed his personality, his hair color, his eye color, what his voice sounded like, or how he would write his name.
5 years ago I didn’t understand what it took to be a mother. That it’s more than just the endless amounts of love. Than what kind of bedding, diapering, feeding, and sleeping decisions I was going to make. So much more.
I didn’t know how happy one smile would make me. How one phrase would make my heart swell. How proud I would be.
5 years ago I was blessed with a tiny miracle – that has grown into the most amazing little boy.
With blonde hair and shimmering blue/green eyes.
With a smile so contagious – even if you’re mad, you can’t stay that way for long.
With a big heart. a sneaky and smart little brain, and a personality that is all his own.
The gift of motherhood has been simultaneously thrilling, challenging, fun, frustrating, and better than I ever expected. My heart grew 3 sizes the minute my baby boy was placed in my arms and hasn’t stopped growing. I don’t regret any of it – for a millisecond.
For whatever reason, 5 seems like a big deal to me. He’s no longer a baby, although he’ll always be my baby. He will likely remember his 5th birthday – and all of the birthdays after this one. 5 signifies the next step – past toddlerhood and preschool. Into the unknown. Not that the past 5 years have been “known.”
I have learned more in the past 5 years than I ever did in school or on the job – and I look forward (with slight aprehension) to the next phase. I can’t wait to learn more about this little boy.
Happy Birthday Braeden! My silly, sweet, and loveable boy. Thank you for everything you have given me – and what you have taught me about myself. Here’s to another 5 years (let’s not let them go by so fast, ‘k?) and many, many more!