Remember when I proclaimed my big, bad, 1:50 half marathon PR dream?
This is how I’m feeling about it right now…
Yeah, my training is going well.
I could offer you a million excuses (and there are TONS) – but I’m calling bullshit on all of them. Yes, I am EXTREMELY busy at work, superbly busy at home, and it’s cold season (I am about to rip my sinuses out of my face), but I’ve trained in similar circumstances with great results. I think it just comes down to this… I’m burned out.
And I’ll say it, as hard as it is to say, I’m not really into running right now. Which is kind of a bummer because this is best time of year to be into running! WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME???
Instead, I’m really enjoying short(er), intense workouts — especially kettlebells. I’m also enjoying sitting on the couch drinking wine. I heard that’s the new workout?
Don’t get me wrong, I’m still running – but it’s maybe three times a week (max) or maybe just once a week (more likely) and it’s never fast like it should be to obtain these dream PRs.
I’m actually trying to figure out why these PR thoughts even came out of my brain in the first place?
And guess what? There’s a secret to ALLLLLLL of this…. If I want to run faster — you know what I NEED to do?? Well, for starters I actually need to run – but I also need to push myself to run FASTER. I know. The logic is so shocking.
Then there’s this…
Probably not happening any time soon.
So in summary these are the things currently going on in my life right now:
- I’m a whining like a little bitch,
- I’m tired
- I’m slightly stressed
- I’m always worrying
- I’m possibly attempting my own medical procedure to rip my sinuses out of my face
- I’m putting my PR dream is on hold right now
I’m still running Best Damn Race at the end of the month, but the pressure is off to be awesome. It’s totally ON to be mediocre. I feel like I need to get my ducks in a row, or my panties out of their bunch, or something productive like that.
Speaking of productive, I AM growing my bangs out, so that’s something…. right?